I believe I was born awake in some form. My mother described me as different from her other children. I didn’t know what that meant until recently. She would always ask me how I knew things or how I thought up certain things. I was channeling information from the Divine as a child, but I did not have the guidance in the 3D to know what I was doing.
My major Spiritual Awakening was trauma induced in 2018. A drug and alcohol bender awakened me to reevaluate my entire life. As I pursed sobriety, I learned through group meetings in AA, that many humans found Spiritual Awakening through withdrawal. Anyone who has experienced attempting to recover from addiction knows that you will need to call on a force higher than yourself to survive. Whether that is God, the Universe, your Higher Self, or a number of other energies that humans resonate with, this energy that you call upon will come to support you to make changes in your life that you are not capable of making on your own.
Hallucinations vs access to the Spiritual Realm. Now this is to be presented as information, not fact. This is a topic that cannot be proven scientifically in the 3D world. Through my time in AA I listened to the testimony of a man who lived in the woods and had travelled to the city to share his story. He was working in a rehab because the best way to stay sober is to help others stay sober. He talked about Alcoholics being Schizophrenics. There is writing of this in the Big Book- basically the Bible of AA. It is said that when Alcoholics (which in the AA theory means also Schizophrenics) live together, they function much better. The Big Book tells the story of Bill who sees Spirits as he is withdrawing in the hospital.
Now I have never personally seriously considered myself to be Schizophrenic after studying the condition. However, Alcoholism does run in my family. During different points of withdrawal I have seen the Holy Spirit as a Spirit or type of what most people would call “Ghost.” The thing with Schizophrenia is that many people hear dark voices or auditory hallucinations which are described as being outside of themselves. I do hear Spirits, but I do not hear them out loud. During the process of Spiritual Awakening I began to realize that some of my thoughts were not my own. It sounds like my voice but it is not coming from me. However it is also not coming from outside of me in a 3D sense. My goal here is to educate you about different experiences that people have with the intention that you can understand how someone can become so spiritual.
Many people ask me how I came to be a Tarot Reader. There is not one answer. In my case it was a series of very dramatic and intense experiences. When one has had many adverse experiences it can make you very intense. I am a diverse person with much to my personality, however, many people describe me as “intense.” This intensity has become one of my greatest assets. Overcoming so much and not only overcoming, but thriving from these experiences is what makes me qualified to guide others. I can hold space for others to share their experiences, traumas, and dreams. Strangers, friends, and clients regularly share things that they have never shared with anyone, and for that I am grateful to hold space.
A video that can be life changing for many is on YouTube- search for “Psychosis or Spiritual Awakening Phil Borges.” In this video he describes how “psychosis” in the West is actually Spiritual Awakening in the East. He talks about visiting tribes where the “mentally ill” in the West become Shamans in the East. Where one going through Spiritual Awakening in the West might be locked up in a Mental Hospital & drugged would be brought for Spiritual training and taught how to unlock and control their gifts as a healer. I am presenting this to you to offer you the opportunity to see Spiritual People fully with their gifts instead as some mentally ill crazy people. LOL! Anyways, this is a brief overview of some topics I have explored along my journey. And if you are questioning your sanity or Spiritual Beliefs then I encourage you to do research and be open to explanations that may be unconventional.
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